I feel like i may be mentally disturbed due to the kinds of es i have?

i felt the same way... because i have some crazy es... and I also was petrified of having a relationship wth a man or woman. I think once you find a certain someone who holds your attention and is accepting of you, you'll find that you'll want to be in a relationship. And if they truly care about you, they'll accept your es... maybe you'll get ucky and they'll be into it too ;)